it's 11.11am. i should be in centro but the rain restricted that. no biggie. so now i sit in front of the comp and wonder. i wondered about lots of things. mainly revolving round love. i didn't want to touch on this subject maybe cause i haven't been there done that. but it's christmas soon. lift up the loving spirit ya? anyhow i read two really good blogs- all sweet and smile inducing. and i half witnessed a patch up between lovers. so maybe not going to centro isn't sucha bad thing.

my sister told me people can live without love and surprisingly i disagreed. (yes, i did amt.) personally, i think that love literally makes the world go round. if it isn't so then why do rich sucessful people feel lonely late at night? why do people cry and embrace love ones at the airport? why are lovesongs more popular? why do people cling on to their lives just so they could wake up and see their love ones again? why do people cry at funerals? why does your heart ache when your love one cheats on you? why do people prefer happy endings where a couple ends up together and not apart? why is there a valentine's day? why did romeo and juliet die? why do people in love look happier and better? so many questions, easily answered with that very statement.

so i daydreamed a lil. i talked to my friends ryan and rio. i listened to boybandish love songs. i read a love story. i thought of friends in love. i begin to see a little bit more of love. so even though i don't know it yet, i'm beginning to understand the magic of love.



meifen _ spoke at 2:30 AM

oh fucking china tour guides. fucking china tour guides that think they're some undiscovered prodigy cause they can speak minimal english which happens to be bloody broken. fucking china tour guides who think that the rest of the world doesn't speak mandarin. smack that china he-bitch.

sun. i need sun. sunshine. i need sunshine.

everyone should read catcher in the rye. i think it's one of the better works ever produced since literature surfaced. j.d salinger can be quite a genius if he tries. i'm in sucha reading mood. quick where's the hanif kureishi book i left halfway (or did i?) and the 25th hour book.

i've been goin out all week, eating, playing, hanging, walking round town and town and town. and holland at night. i've had popeye's, sakae, dover food, nydc, geylang you tiao, pepper crab.. sheesh.. life is so carefree i'm gettin bored. hmm.. it's time to do some self upgrading. maybe, just maybe, i'll encounter some life changing situations.. good ones of course. so fun. can't wait..


meifen _ spoke at 3:38 PM

last night i had a crazy dream.
i was in melbourne, on collins street, atop anz goth buliding to be exact. but it looked different despite the similarity. i saw the sky in a different light. the world below me was oblivious to my existence. on the opposite building were a few friends. i saw two of them fall and disappear into the crowd below. one of them spoke to me and asked me to jump. and i did. it was beautiful falling down, the world rushing past me in one big scurry. and i was simply awaiting death. waiting for the hard hit that would crack my skull. but it didn't come. instead, i rose up from the ground and met my friends on the other side. the living couldn't see us but some with the third eye could. it was kinda funny how free we all felt, being able to do anything we desired. i walked past the chalk outlines of ourselves the police had drawn up. i went to funerals and saw people weeping. i became the haunting.

i woke up thinking i was dead.

anyhow, did i mention that i love my friends. yes i do. i'm in sucha lovey dovey mood.
btw, no groupie. no. i vote abs does not get to choose the name. i know anne and eunice second that. i believe the rest would too. why do we need a name anyway?

meifen _ spoke at 2:48 PM