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Saturday, January 17, 2004
The best I could do now is sit by the old dusty yellow window, hoping you'll turn your back any minute now.
It was as if the sun took a bow and exited the stage when you told me it was over. What was over? All these days of whispered sweet nothings, late night phone calls, lingered kisses and eternal promises are characterised by a simple it? The world is becoming more ironic every passing minute. How long has it been? A forgotten time trial summons me upon your judgment. It's brutal and unfair, your cruelty is too much for this weak heart. So please, don't leave… perhaps that's why people don't fall anymore into the trap. deadly trap of dying inside, every second an ache etched within. whatever happened to happily ever after? people who don't know me enough might actually think something bad has happened.. in contrary, the close ones have no worries about my well being because maybe i'm a little too well protected. i'll admit. it's habitual. maybe someday i'll break it. sometimes, i don't make sense anymore. One day What if one day You don't hear me call What if one day I don't smile the same way What if one day I can't look into your eyes What if one day I look away We met through chance Friendship was effortless We weren't close But before I was aware Time delivered proximity I hear the woes I see the laughter I was touched My precious, my friend What if one day I don't see your smile What if one day I see you less than never What if one day I say goodbye in silence What if one day Is this very day? I didn't expect a twist I see the ghost of love It's haunting, I welcome it You hide in the light It's clearer now I fade into the crowd Enveloped in darkness All clear now My vision was clouded But time is unkind still. One day. Today. Goodbye. I'll say a prayer for you. Prends soin, mon ami Mon precieux. --------------------------- on a lighter note, my song of the moment is 'polly had a dolly'. today, i did the hokey pokey, sang 'five little monkeys jumping on the bed' and played musical chairs. i learnt the sound 'S' makes and i remembered '1, 2 buckle my shoe'. I love my kiddos. this is so unexpected. Sunday, January 11, 2004
played netball finally. it was definitely good playing once again, meeting old friends, talking about the fond days, the secrets and scandals and of course, the feeling of just playing on court.
the game's half a minute away, positions were given out. i take the bib given to me and slipped it over so easily. the team psychs up, we talk. other teams hold hands and pray. umpires get ready, putting on their professional mask. the siren goes. you head out to meet your opponents. sometimes, they're nice, other times, they plain suck. the whistle blows as sneakers frictioned against the court creating little squeaks. the game is on. but sometimes, deja vu just isn't enough. i've been in the same situation so many times i lost count. but today, it was so different. the people weren't the same. but that's still passable. the mentality was nowhere near serious. can't be helped. the skills were unpolished after a long period of inactivation. inevitable. we played, we lost, we won. we were no longer top. no longer invincible. no longer focused on a common goal. no longer coached the way we used to be. no longer THE team we used to be. and no matter how we try to get it back, it's never gonna be the same. never. not unless time travel gets invented. but it was good fun anyway. we sure did lotsa catching up. i miss my team. my home players. maybe one day we should ALL get tog. maybe if you've never been there before, you wouldn't want it so badly. Sunday, January 04, 2004
nothing special just an ordinary post.
so yesterday, i met up with some s'pore friends from australia. it was pretty entertaining being around old friends feasting on familiar food in newton circus. we had two rounds of sambal stingray, sambal squid, satay, oyster omelette, hokkien mee, roti john, popiah, fried rice, lemonkissed sugarcane juice and ice longan. oh yummy. went for a movie before that, got tix for bloody freeze me, only to realise that it's R(a). so called up a few friends in some vain attempt to get id. in the end, we ditched the show for paycheck sneaks. i'm glad caused paycheck was brilliant and apparently, freeze me is nothing more than a lousy film using a thriller plot to cover it's highly pornographic characteristics. haha. see, blessing in disguise. went scouting for gym membership to pass time before the movie. checked out cali fitness and the ppl there were rather 'teeco' and they were quite pushy la. other than that, the gym was pretty damn good. 3 or 4 levels i think. checked fitness first as well... amazing toilet. the word doesn't even fit.. it's more than a toilet.. it's beautiful. there's a sauna and steamroom and rilly nice rosewood lockers. the spinning studio is some glow in the dark room. cool. there's free vcd rental and spa discounts too. oh ya, if you rilly wanna know, they have some mini lounge area where there's free drinks and they even inform you the calorie content of each drink. oh fitness first also has a branch right on bourke st. yay. the oub and keppel branches have got pools and hot and cold jacuzzies too. all that said, the membership is steep for both gyms obviously. the cali guy gave quite a good offer tho. but fitness first is grand. o well. i've got training later. guess that's the cheapest alternative to stay fit. see y'all. |
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