i should have gotten over with it 4 months back. but due to bad timing and flight details, it was postponed. i should have gotten over with it end march but due to disastrous moving efforts, it was postponed again. but now that it's off my mind, i can't explain how exhilarating it is to say out loud, 'i can drive legally!' yay. and yes, i like to boast that it's my first attempt. this is so GREAT. pieces of life is coming tog. soon, i'll have a room. then i'll start studying for the exams which means, the guys will hafta find a new hangout. then it'll be the hols and i'm gonna go to sydney and if all goes right, mount hotham or falls creek or some skiing place. woohoo. see, i am planning my life out neat and nice. this is so good.

keeping a secret is so hard.. especially when it's something as sacred as your driving test date. but it's all over and i am so happy still. i really like my testor, he's how nice.

by the way, anyone wanna go to DeFrost? 14th may, it's rnb and techno, at glenferrie, Hawthon and tix are goin at $13. get it from me before the prices are jacked up at the door like always.



meifen _ spoke at 8:16 PM

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin' love was just for fun
Those days are gone

Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself anymore

Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love's so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

wahahahahaha...lalala...jokes........ :) funny funny funny...hahahah...sadness... *grin..* - anne

i am so not going to end up like that. i am so not affected by that song. nope, not at all. hmmm... yep, not one bit. not even a teeny weeny bit. in case you did not hear me, i am so not affected by it. hurhhh.. save me.

The house is so messy and i am turning into an ice-cream eating couch potato. my diet so far is nam long's 3 treasure rice and ice-cream. yes, the food name is corny but so is every other chinatown food you find here. we've got names like kin do pai guat fan, qair zai min and dong leng mut. dun even bother asking me to explain what cos it's beyond my vocab to elaborate. anyhow, digression aside, i've been watching vcds, dvds and the lot for how many days i can't count. in fact, there isn't one disc in the house that i haven't watched. well, the unwatcheable ones aside at least. and it's so unfair, melbourne uni doesn't have anzac day. why? shouldn't we celebrate the war efforts of nz and aust, oh c'mon man.

i wanna jet to spain right this moment. then i'll go to hawaii after that and stay there for a good period of time. that is what i'll do if you ask me now. if only.




meifen _ spoke at 12:18 AM

i am amazed by how my dear friend has changed. for the better? matured? smarter? maybe to all the above.

there is a cat curled up on my lap. it is black. black cat crosses my path, everyother day. hell, make that everyday. it is like so spoilt and so pampered. like a queen, no, the queen. are all cats like that? anyway, i don't care, it can't play queen no more.

i am feeling so strange without any pressing assignments to hand up. i forgot how to slack. see, usually i have fun in between rushing essays and feeling gulity for not finishing my work.. but now... i have no work, so i can't have fun? it's like ritalin... all the bad side effects but once you've become dependent on it, without it everything is downhill. i'm so glad i'm not a hyperactive-ritalin-dependent-junkie.


i miss my babyboy. the look on his face when he smiles. the frown followed by silent tears. i miss you.

meifen _ spoke at 9:51 AM

a friend is going back. what if it's for good? will i see him again? will i hear the crappy words falling from his mouth? will i see the stupid smile spread across his face? will i see him stone around? will he crack my knuckles suddenly? will anyone 'show the love'? who am i going to scold for no reason? who's going to initiate gettin drunk? who's going to be mr nice guy? who's goin to fix the light bulb or even reach the light bulb? who's going to rap lmf out loud? oh no.

but, even though this might be your last days here, i wish you all the best. take care and don't fuck around. diu lei.

meifen _ spoke at 7:31 PM

went for a spin
i saw wet eyes
at least there was
a valid reason
for silent emotions
i wish i'm allowed
to cry

still in the car
the lights promenade
so beautiful
i fell into slumber
for those pocketed minutes
wasted the rationale
of a late night drive

we past the highway
grazed the beach
classical sounds
played in the loo
drag racing could
have been fun
with avril shouting
from the back stereo

i had to much to drink
so please, no driving
i sat in near silence
loving every minute
of this late night spin
one more time, cause
when you've been there
you want it even more

meifen _ spoke at 10:32 AM

i received some news. i am neither happy nor sad. i've become kinda immune to emotional attacks. maybe cause i have two essays due and it's not to good to go all pondering over my emotions now. so i blog. blog to kill the asswipe feeling inside, blog to poison away the heaviness of a drenched doona inside. hurh.

a lil comment made me happy today. that is the way to go man. stay happy. say cheese and smile. yay.

MCQ

if you are an initiator of relationships and you meet someone you're falling in love with (and of course receive the same vibes),

(1) would you go all out and have a whirlwind romance

or

(2) would you go slow and work your way up bit by bit, sweet and sweeter?


i choose (1). no questions ask.

save me. i am dying. i am so dying. i am so so dying. i hate doing this but.. sighs.
i hate murphy and his law. why murphy?
did you guys know that murphy was an optimist? what the hell? after everything goes wrong and you're still happy? ok meifen, count your blessings. count your blessings.


meifen _ spoke at 12:40 AM

TRUTH or DARE

spin the bottle and it lands on me. a friend looks in my eye and smirked.

'truth or dare?'

'dare.'

i did it fast and up. that's what i liked about it. you get to choose, you do it, and it's done. i never choose truth cause i try not to lie. too many secrets? maybe, you try figuring out.

once more, he smirked. 'truth or dare?'

'dare.' i did it again.

5 more dares and i was not given a choice anymore. i had to speak the truth. but why?? it's the rules of the game. everyone wanted the truth out of themselves. i stand in awe of their transparency, their security. he smirked again and asked the question. i answered. somehow, it sounds worse than doing a stripdance or frenching another or wadever.

i had like a cool dream this morning in between waking up due to camera flashes and waking up due to grocery shoppers. i dreamt about a new friend, an old one and a non one. then i dreamt about more faraway friends and the place was one amazing playground of amazing sights. there was this buzzing in my ear and i felt the gray and white matter in my brain fizzing about after a friend offered this cool mercury liquid tablet. go figure.

evolution was cool- what with the unisex ally mcbeal toilet but..
i miss mambo at zouk.

meifen _ spoke at 3:15 PM