have you watched young and dangerous ? well, in every gangster movie there will be a thrashy girlfriend of one of the 'gu wat zai' who would get involved in a street brawl, she'll try to stop the fight, get involved in it and talk sense into the dude; shout at him; hold him back and stop the bleeding. she'll be decked in nothing more than a tiny top and a mini rara skirt. well, last night i was that girl. with the exception that i am not thrashy, i had the advantage of wearin a jacket cos it was probably freezing and i wasn't a girlfriend. yes, i told you stuff happens everytime i club but i wasn't expecting that and in the middle of the street with an audience of probably 30 and a cast of 20. oh, and i sure did not expect the police to arrive and clean up the mess. so now, i've lost my voice scolding the two idiots who were takin on the role of brothers in a brotherhood who have to protect each other no matter what. yes, i had sucha great time giving both of them a good scolding. and i was doing a marilyn monroe with my black rara skirt, tryin to ease the brawl. yes, call the brother who would call the brother and get your testosterone-ego-boostin fix. yes, i am quite pissed.


meifen _ spoke at 2:42 PM

nothing conveys what i feel now more than 'oops, i did it again.'

i made you believe we're more than just friends.
i'm not that innocent.
i wish i was but seriously,
i can't say i'm sorry cause i'm not.
i don't want to be a heartbreaker
but somebody's bound to do it.
i didn't want to play but i guess i did.
i'll pretend it all never happen, can you?
please do.

yes, it's gettin borin but i went clubbin again. it's like a fire that wouldn't stop and now when i wake up the morning after and think back to what i did. i was only so silly, it's funny.

and so the story goes, it's AMBER tonight and something always happen. tonight, let there be no exceptions.


meifen _ spoke at 4:39 PM

haunting. i realise how much my involvment will kill me. so now, i'll try my best to stay out, for fear i'll feel like a fool the morning after..

it's unbelievable how all these promoters and club owners or random people in the clubbin industry can club day after day, night after night, week after week drinking and dancing and doing their hey-let's-have-a-drink social shithole routine with everyone they know. i'm glad to say i can't. I had a lot of fun at amber... it was definitely comparable to ffour. maybe better. but i can't do it anymore. consecutive weeks, 3 days straight. it's amazing how i still sit here fulfiling my blogging obligations.

i hate the way i smile when our eyes meet.
i hate the way you look into my eyes and i have to look into yours.
i hate the way you try to scare me into believing i might not do what i want to.
i love the way you caugt me off guard.
i love your sheepish smile.
the you in question is not one. maybe two, maybe more. but i don't think about it cause you are strictly pretty-shoe-that-is-2-size-too-small out of reach just because of one person. big fat o well.


meifen _ spoke at 12:48 PM

meifen _ spoke at 5:50 PM

it's downright superficial but stil i'm left charmed by it's sudden relief of emptiness and feel jus a lil of mock happiness dancing with my mates and gettin down with them, it's fun. it's fake but good. a real useful therapy that liberates. i like the crowd at ffour. sometimes, i feel too magnanimous but i love my friends deep enough to let them be happy first. it's a really nice picture of the two of you. for myself, i'm waiting till december and bringin d0wn the house my own way.

how many times can you take fer real the 'you're so sexy.' , 'you're gorgeous' and know that those dudes aren't a buncha drunk fucks? none. so i see myself stronger than them all each time. i fall but i fly higher the next time.


meifen _ spoke at 4:40 AM

coldstream red doesn't come cheap
we had a fancy dress and swished
sparkling moet and chandon
talked like yuppies gone hip
soaked in dim orange lights
and went through religions and ways
we yabbed bout people we don't comprehend
and people we once were

played indian poker of strip girls
all topless and boobs
and we laughed it out
more coldstream red downed
and a short cab ride to where
nowhere we sat and chat
of dreams and ego boosters
and wished things were better
but now i sit and wonder
i'm glad i'm still here.

so i had a great time last night.. i caught king arthur and had a nice italian meal and fun after. it's sucha nice little feelin to jus hang out and talk. now i can't wait fer school to start. and i thought i would die cold and alone in some little dark dirty alley. see, i like twists like that. woohoo..


meifen _ spoke at 12:12 PM

i watched stepford wives. aiyer, so dumb ler. haha. i went clubbin after that. haha. i am now thrashed. a tequila shot, a b52, a tequila sunrise, a cascade premium, sex on the beach, a vodka lime and another tequila sunrise. and cascade light before all that. i hope you realise i had hell lot of difficulty typin this out. i had an argument with a friend. like jus. i did it cos i wanted to.. it has nothing to do with trust. dun even go there. i hope u drive home safe. anyhow, i found a party partner!!!! esther!!! love her moves and all, gets anyone to boogie man!!! haha. yes, i am still thrashed. Hope you had fun, girl.

to a particular person. sometimes, i argue with you, but really, i am quite concern. we may never be hugs-and-kisses friends but we're still the n'amie pas toujours.



meifen _ spoke at 4:56 AM

i met the zouk model.

yes, i am not kidding. i was acquainted with him, shook his hand, talked to him and chilled at my house.

yes, i am serious! what an ironic twist of events. he looked so familiar but i wasn't quite sure until i asked. and he said he did the adidas show at zouk sometime durin the previous hols.

to amt, dee and possibly xiang: he is taken. sighs. but well, he is not gay. or married... and his girlfriend is nice and friendly so it's all good.

and be proud of me, i declined the invitation to have coffe with em...

if you wanna know what exactly happened, call me and i'll tell you.

meifen _ spoke at 10:12 AM